Before I share with you today, I’d like you to take a few moments to read Oil Spill: Taking Personal Responsibility an incredible essay written by Tess sharing with us some very Love based ways we can make a difference in the oil spill experience….Thank you for exploring this with Tess…..
I write this from the clubhouse at the end of a very very long day… I am grateful that I chose to live in a marina with a beautiful clubhouse overlooking the harbor that I love. I am grateful for the beauty filled evening. For the well-lit pool. For my children who are awesome in so many ways..I write this with a gratitude filled heart.
This past week I have been asking God/the Universe for a sign as to whether or not I am correct in allowing my heart to lead. If I am asking such a question, I have been hurt..only in the face of pain do I ever doubt. I’d like to banish doubt and stand strong in faith, so I ask for a sign to help me along my way. When I Ask, I then try to be most quiet; immerse myself in nature; provide plenty of time for journaling, long walks, kayaking, looking at the night sky, basking in the sun. I know to Listen, and I know to remain Aware for surely when I Ask, an Answer often appears in the form of a sign. A friend once commented that the world is full of signs, how do you know if the sign is for you??? Something to ponder..today I am going to share with you this common occurence in my life..if I Ask, I shall Receive…
In a post two Mondays ago I spoke about ducks being on the dock as I walked..then ducks in my cockpit…Abundant Love. There are often ducks in the water, sometimes casually milling about on the finger ways of the dock, but never in front of me blocking my path, and never ever *in my cockpit*. I knew this was a sign. So, as I mentioned, I looked up the symbolism of ducks: honesty, simplicity, resourcefulness, sensitive to their surroundings, beauty, agile, and adaptable to nature. And I concluded then..*there* is the Love…..abundant Love, exactly as I know it to be. Love is in honesty, simplicity, resourcefulness, sensitivity to my surroundings, beauty, agility, and being adaptable to nature. Exactly how I live.
However, in life, there are times I don’t process the Answer completely the first time and I need reminding. Sometimes I need the sign to be so straightforward I know it is for me, so ‘in my face’ that there is no doubt I am to Listen….This weekend–as I was still questioning–I was entering the boat, I went down the companionway stairs, and turned around to look out the open hatch..when in flew a duck..pretty much right in my face. I screamed out of surprise and also a bit of fear. As my son was patiently absorbing the beauty of the duck I was frantically thinking of how to close the hatch to keep the duck out of my living area. Did you catch that??? *grin* I–who believes fully in signs and had already researched the symbolism of ducks–was trying to close the door on…Abundant Love as I described above. So, here I am asking for a sign..I receive the sign subtly at first then in my face…and I try to slam the door on it!!!! I get it okay..I get it…
In all honesty, though, I have allowed my heart to continue to remain open through some devastating hurt this week. There were some days the pain was great and I wanted to close my heart a bit to alleviate the pain. In my own life, though, I know to work through pain to dissolve it so it loses its future power over my choices…if I avoid it then I give it power…Still, in those moments, I’d like an ‘easier answer’ than to embrace abundant love. I mean shoot, embracing this week has hurt quite a bit as I’ve begun to settle into this transition to Light Worker. I’ve endured some horrible conversations and texts from those reluctant to allow me to change. (*That* is about release which I shall cover in a later post). All of that was balanced out by incredible support and encouragement from those who surround me. For a moment I let fear take over and tried to slam the door on the ‘duck’…but then I quickly turned off my mind and allowed my heart to rule..and *I’m back*.
As some of you know, for my son’s birthday we went to a theme park this past weekend. In the middle of the theme parked, jam-packed with people…was :
right…are you with me here??? Incredulous! Geese!! The attendant rushed over to tell me not to pet the geese because they are wild and may bite and are absolutely not part of the park’s attractions! My children were on a ride and did not believe as I stood there waiting that a gaggle of geese walked by! Okay, what you do not know as you read this is that I had recently read Unity\’s Path Readings for June on Evita’s blog which among other things mentions the importance of swans this month. And when I looked up the meaning of geese I found that swans, ducks, and geese are in the same family…So….
So, I obviously have my answer. Unity’s article also mentions amazing information for the month of June, information that parallels exactly all that is part of my journey. Signs indeed. All around me in the forms easiest for me to process.
And last. As I was receiving a text loop of criticism that was meant to wound me, and sure did…I was reading my email (my mind tends to disengage when I am being ‘yelled at’) and the very email that popped up was a surprise email from a respected friends partner with much praise for this path I am on, much praise for living my dream on the boat..much praise that immediately took the sting away from hurtful words. Now, my journey is not about praise nor criticism. My journey is about keeping my heart open completely so that I may embrace each moment as it is..about growing the good in my life so that when my garden is plentiful I have much to share with others. My journey is about faith versus fear. And when I Ask…I shall Receive..But it’s sure nice when Love immediately takes away the sting of pain. Just like that! Answers from God/the Universe before I may even question…
And one of the most inspirational signs of my week appeared through yet another email. If you choose to watch the following video, you may then be compelled to keep moving forward within your own dreams…and you may even shed a tear (I did!). May we all live and love with…
So I ask you…when you wonder if you are on the right path, what do you do with that??? Do you look for signs within your own life? When you are presented with them, do you acknowledge them or shoo them away?
*Please join me this Friday as a few of our beloved blog authors share their adjectives of summer…*