All of the practices I share with you in these pages are from the pages of my own life. I often write about embracing the moment *exactly* as it is, not as I wish it would be. I often write about choosing joy, peace, abundance; growing the good; filling my space with gratefulness for all that I *do* have…
I tend to lead with my heart, so not all moments are joy filled–some contain other emotions. In those moments, I let the feeling wash over me; I choose not to numb it or avoid it or bury it, but to *feel* it. Well, last night while at work, staff was speaking about one member who is most cunning, manipulative, knows how to work the system to somehow best everyone else while cutting corners. It makes me sad to know that a person may allow fear to lead, then somehow “get their way” so will continue to operate in such a manner….
I then read an article written by Dylan Klebold’s mother. Dylan Klebold is one of the teenagers who was a shooter in the Columbine massacre. Dylan’s mother wrote about her side–her shame, her disappointment and how she is trying to heal….It hurt my heart to realize that I had never really considered her side. The pain that she must have endured knowing her son was involved in such horrendous violence, the pain as she wished she could erase the hurt to those involved, the pain that if she could go back in time she would somehow be able to ‘save’ her son…Where is the Love????
And then I read a few blogs. A writer I trust wrote about being enraged at a situation and the process of ‘justification” and the commenters agreed. Still fear based…and I thought, wow–where is the Love???? Another writer I trust wrote an essay with words that sounded amazing on paper, but were far different from the choices truly made in life. Where is the Love??? In the midst of deep fear and all that it morphs into…then where is the Love???
When my shift ended in the middle of the night, I walked home down the dock with a heavy heart. It was a cloudy night, so the moon was not visible although I knew it was there..and there were a few stars. I spoke with God, the moon, the stars…I will allow my heart to remain open even though it hurts…but please show me, where is the Love??? I believe in Love, I base my life on Love, please show me where it is….
See, this is how I deal with pain…I acknowledge it. I feel it fully. I bring it to God/the Universe. I learn the lesson in it. I release it. So, I asked for a sign, because I want to believe Love exists…abundantly. Walking down the dock, I began to give praise for my harbor, my neighbors, the night sky, God, the moon, the stars…and right in front of my boat were three ducks. Sitting on the dock. I knew that was a sign. I’m never first to comment on any blog, and it was just past midnight so I knew Lance’s Sunday Thought would just barely be posted…and it was the most beautiful Love Story. If you desire to know abundant love, please check it out. When I woke, I opened the hatch, to find a duck in my cockpit!!!! First and only time there has ever been a duck in my cockpit…sitting right on the cushion outside my hatch. I was going to take a picture because my children will not believe it, but I knew it was a Divinely placed sign, so I quick thanked God and the Universe, then thanked the duck and observed–quietly asking what is your message?
Of course, I looked up the symbolism of ducks: honesty, simplicity, resourcefulness, sensitive to their surroundings, beauty, agile, and adaptable to nature. *There* is the Love…..abundant Love, exactly as I know it to be. Love is in honesty, simplicity, resourcefulness, sensitivity to my surroundings, beauty, agility, and being adaptable to nature. Exactly how I live. For a few moments I let external make me doubt my internal, I gave it to God and the Universe, filled my heart with praise…and got the Answer I needed. It was my choice to be aware and open to the Answer….
The Answer is in my heart, my life, my actions….Abundant Love. Last Monday, I told you I would share today my wonderful adventure filled weekend with my children. The gist of that weekend is my Answer from within my own life to where is the Love??? The Love is *right here* in lazy days in which my children and I allow for unfolding, for the day to progress as it will, for our hearts to remain open to delight and wonder. The Love is right here in the simple way that we live, the Ease and Joy we share with each other, the way our moments just naturally flow and we delight in them. The Love is right here in our love of nature and the Energy we feel when sitting under a canopy of huge trees, basking in the sunshine, playing on a farm with a variety of animals. The Love is right here in our hearts as we have compassion for those that have less and share what we have so they feel they have a bit more…
I grew up in Upstate NY among trees, hiking trails, huge expanse of fields and property….I grew up with horses–riding and training them–many many hours at the horse barn, stables….I grew up working at a family friend’s produce stand at the local farmer’s market during season…So I may live on a boat now, but I completely appreciate Nature in all forms and love to be out in the hills and at the Farm even as much as I love my backyard islands and all that the harbor offers…
For last weekend, I was still quite ill, but I put that aside to enjoy the time with my children. The first day we headed to the hills of Ojai..
…and we ended up at a healing festival held on the grounds of a metaphysical store where we enjoyed looking at a variety of products got some cool temporary Energy tattoos, and Kevin enjoyed painting something he titled “Diving Into Life”….
We then decided to go to our favorite park in Ojai..Libbey Park..known for it’s giant trees and amazing Energy…also the site of one of my drum circles…We splurged a bit and got some chips and salsa to add to our picnic in the gazebo….
Amazing Energy….Amazing! On the way home, we found a most delight filled treat–an outdoor bookstore! The sign says it has over 100,000 books all outdoors…avid readers that we are we had to check it out…indescribable!!!
The next day we went to a Farm about 90 minutes away called The Gentle Barn. This Farm is a rescue center for severely abused animals. We went from the lush green hills of the day before, to brown, dusty dry hills in the other direction…
All three of us fell in love on the Farm. The animals range from horses, pigs, cows to exotic such as emus, peacocks and such. We were there hours. Kevin found his niche that we will explore in the future; Kaitlyn loves animals so went from one to the other just loving on them all. My experience was pure joy at watching my children open their hearts and allowing their peace and joy to touch each animal that they interacted with. We read the biographies of each animal and were touched by their stories. Touched by the Energy of the place. I felt so sad that this particular animal (whatever animal I was interacting with) endured so much. I felt so sad that people could allow fear to enable them to be so cruel to inflict such pain. I felt so sad that the biography of each animal also mirrored biographies of people that I personally know. I felt grateful to be there. Grateful to be in the day. Grateful to share as we did. My Spirit soared….We took a few photos available here at Photo Slideshow , but mainly we were focused on the animals…And *grin* when you see the photo of me with the emu–they said don’t look him in the eye, so I surely did not 🙂
*There* in the day, our hearts wide open…*there* is the love…with my children, in nature, simple, peace filled, joy filled…pure and abundant Love…
May you allow your heart to feel each and every emotion
Presented to you.
Allow it to wash over you
Give it to God/The Universe
May you realize that Love
Pure, simple, strong
And Love is External
if you allow your eyes to observe
your ears to listen
your senses to respond to the Answer
May you feel Abundant Love
May you share Abundant Love.