Today’s post requires a bit of imagination….
There are certain times in my life that I choose to ”smash the mold”. By smash the mold, I mean to take a perceived notion, an expectation, anything that I think I know about the experience that I am processing…then I Smash It! I remove *my* self from the entire situation, from life, almost as a third party looking in. I am there, but not there. Can you imagine with me???
I am not referring to pain filled moments where I just want to disconnect because I think my body, mind, Spirit cannot physically live through it. I am referring to beauty, peace, love filled moments where I allow my heart to be so completely open, that I then am the air, the sky, the ground, the Energy…all that I seek, *I am*. Time stands still even as it races ahead. I am grounded even as I soar. I allow my heart to be open–regardless of external circumstances…I stand in Faith–regardless of external circumstances… I choose to fully embrace the moment, let it wash over me– regardless of external circumstances. Sometimes it’s only a few moments together, sometimes it’s an entire day of such moments–such a delight, such a treasure. It is always disengaging my mind, living only with my senses; fully alive, fully aware, fully focused on *this very moment* exactly as it is. A fellow blogger, David, wrote about it a while back in an essay which I will share with you in a bit. An essay titled “Die on Purpose”– he gave me persmission to share it with you today.
The very title invokes fear in some. The idea of death can be scary. In my own life, I choose to die on purpose; each time I remove *my* self–Ego–*I* then die a bit. As I said above, I frequently use a technique I call “smash the mold”; I take expectation, doubt, worry, hurt…whatever emotion or thought I think I know that is holding me back, I place it in a mold in my mind, then I “Smash it!!!“ Release it all. And walk away from it. I let my Spirit soar in my newfound space. I stretch in many ways; I revel in the new space. I let the space stay empty. Some are afraid of empty; I embrace empty…nothing is absolutely the best something.
In theory then, my goal is to become nothing, which I believe is the highest form of something. To aspire to nothingness requires that I acknowledge my Energy, stay mindfully present, disengage my mind allowing my senses to lead, and trust that the Universe/God will guide me to unfolding exactly as it should be. Much like nature that I love to play in, be in, there are cycles in a day, in a week, in my life that will naturally occur. Cycles I used to resist out of fear…but now am learning to embrace. When I resist, I alter my path even the slightest bit; when I remain open, I grow and allow for room for magnificent blossoming. I love to blossom. Effortless when approached in this manner. In your own life, have you ever experienced your blossoming self? *You* in your purest form. Yet, not you at all; just beautiful, pure Energy.
Some people are so afraid of death–even those that will tell you they love me–that they cling tightly to my old self, they stand in the way of such a choice of death, they fear for themselves so they fear for me too. I don’t ask anyone to embrace this concept, but I do ask you to allow me to be healthy, whole, free to embrace the moment as it is meant to be embraced. With my senses, not my mind. You may be afraid if I “die” it will alter our interactions somehow… In fact, to die on purpose allows me to embrace life more enthusiastically, more exuberantly; so it affects you in only that way–in our interactions then you will feel more peace, more joy, more love.
The following comment that I left on David’s blog sums it up quite well:
“The biggest barrier in my life is fear. Fear exists when I believe *I* matter. To diminish that fear, I remove myself from a day–turn off my phone, open the hatches on the boat to let air flow through, string up my hammock or sit in the v-berth so I may see the sky, and just exist in the moment/s. Pure bliss. Peace. As it is. Nothing else. I used to want to capture those moments with words or photos, but they truly just “are”.
When my children or close friends ask me about a particular challenge in their life, they are usually afraid of failure. My question is always will you die “if”? I mean will your Spirit die a bit if you don’t at least try, or if you do, or will your physical body die? If the answer is I won’t suffer…then at least *try*….
And if you do die..what then? What if you no longer exist as you know yourself to be…is that pure freedom to then be who are are meant to be in whatever form that is to be for you? Isn’t that to be celebrated? In life I’ve been recreated several times, I am no longer who I was last year, or many years ago…shouldn’t I celebrate each “death” because I am more of myself, or should I fear such a change?”
So, I’d like to introduce you to David. He absolutely rocks Raptitude. His writing style is fantastic, and all that he presents fascinates me because he thinks differently than I …I’m so ethereal to his intellectual self. He often performs detailed experiments within his own life to examine a habit, to change something. He is traveling and working as he travels. He is outspoken. Reading his blog makes me rethink my own ideas, think about new ideas, opens my mind to new and different. He is not preachy, he is not *in your face*, he just is. And a few months back he wrote the following essay Die On Purpose, that I sent to my friends as soon as I read it, and then have referred back to it during this past month’s personal transformation. He writes exactly what I tried to describe to you above. Please take the time to click the link to read it, because what he expresses so adequately may be life changing.
Fear is only powerful if there is a lack of Faith; may we stand shoulder to shoulder in Faith…and may we “die, often”…..